INVISIBLE PAIN

Charlotte Murdoch

When the world slows down,
you speed up.
Running at a million miles,
your energy is powered by my exhaustion.

Your deafening scream
confirms I will never be good enough;
it’s always the same.
The ‘outsiders’ cannot see you,
cannot hear you,
because you hide behind your name.

Your complexity astounds psychologists,
but your individuality causes my pain.
You will never leave me alone,
because you reside inside my brain.

Will a lullaby soothe you,
and stop the baby cry?
For this baby has never grown her wings,
depression will never let her fly.